Bros-before-Hoes No's More.

                             So goodnight moon and goodnight you,
                                 When you're all that I think about ,
                                          All that I dream about,
                                  How'd I ever breathe without?
                                   Go Radio- Goodnight Moon

It's official, my life was able to get worse.
How long can I honestly keep this up? The person I like and one of my best friends both coming to me and telling me how much they like each other. One telling me although she knows I still like him, she's going to go out with him anyway, and the other suprised when I wasn't too keen when he revealed it to me.
 It's only a matter of time before they start going out, and only 4 people know how truly crushed I am.

I thought friends weren't supposed to do this to each other? Honestly, this would be the last thing I'd ever do to a friend. It's painful and torturous. Something I wouldn't wish on anyone.

How can you let one of your best friends go out with the person of your dreams, and do it with a smile, just to keep 2 out of 3 people happy instead of 3 out of 3 miserable?

I guess even I suprise myself sometimes, although I wish this wasn't one of the times I had to.

How can I even bare to look at you tomorrow?

                       You're all that I'd hope I'd find,
                              In every single way;
                 And this'll be the first time in a week,
                 That I'll talk to you and I can't speak.
                  Mayday Parade- Miserable At Best


That awkward moment when you just hate everyone.

My God, I'm honestly done with high school.
And I'm just done with thinking people are my friends when they're really not.

"I'm sorry I really like the person you like and that I'm going after him. And I'm sorry that he probably likes me, and that other of our friends are all conspiring together o get us to go out. I feel bad, should I stop?"

WHAT DO YOU THINK?

I can't even tell them both how I feel because I'll lose one of them for sure. I just have to suck it up and pretend like it's not killing me inside. This is one of the hardest things I've EVER had to do. Not even being an exaggerating teenage girl, it's literally eating at me.

And to you Mr. Boy: Do you know how much I've done for you? Been there when you were depressed, during the relationship of your Ex, been there when you confessed you liked my best friend and asked for me to set you up and all of the countless other things. I can't even bare to look at you without feeling heartbroken and utterly furious.

I'm done in the truest sense of the word and absolutely NO ONE understands/ is there to help me.

Theme of the day: Telephones.

           You should have made some plans with me,
                      You knew that I was free,
               And now you won't stop callin' me,
                            I'm kinda busy.
                     Lady Gaga- Telephone

The first two lines are a little bit irrelevant to my day, but the last two lines are DEFINITELY my day today. ...And for the past few weeks.

1) Maybe I've started being "annoying" with the texts I've started sending to them. I don't think so, but lately when they don't reply, it feels that way. It's not like I'm being an "annoying", lonely, creepy stalker that constantly calls though...
SEGUEEEEEE.

2) OhMyGod. Stop. Calling. Me. Every. Day. Twice. A. Day.
It's so annoying, I'm busy. I have SO much homework. I'm sick. I'm stressed. Now I'm over using periods. THIS IS WHAT YOU'RE DOING TO ME.

Oh dearest blog that I'd probably be in major trouble if anyone found, thanks for letting me vent and not calling me x34698575673 a day in return.